| It's been a while since I last update... Didn't feel like writing anything at all.
Why do I always have to realise what I did was wrong after I suffered from it ?
It just happened, one morning, I woke up, and everything was different, it was all gone.
I realised I didn't have to be like that, crying, but just had to see that everything wasn't as perfect as I thought, and that one day it will be much better.
And, unlike I seems to be thinking, things aren't too bad. (apart from the family stuff). but I've got my friends anyways.
I just have to work hard, what I'm starting to do. Last evening on the train I worked and read "Le Monde" and "Challenges" (a newspaper and a finance magazine) so nothing can stop me, I want to work and I'm willing to be successful in everything I'll ever undertake.
Don't get me wrong, I don't want to work, work, and work, well pretty much at the moment, but I just need to know I can do it, I just want to do it, I want to get the best I can. And I know I can do it. I'm sure I can do it. And if it appears that I can't I'd be ... I don't even know ...
Things are so much different from what they used to be. This whole year (sept 06 - june 07) was really different. It was the best I had. I met great people, I got to know some other and found out they wasn't what I thought they were, I got to do a lot of things, to feel lots of others. I'm glad of what I got to live.
And now, the only thing I'm waiting for is the 15th June, at noon, the end of the baccalaureate, (and the 22nd June - i have one last exam on that day). And then it's summer, and it's fun, and it's no ending nights, it's clubbing, it's parties, it's world famous djs' set at the beach, it's everything i'm not doing right now cause I have to study.
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| It's (only) been one month.
But I don't have any doubts.
Am I changing,
Or are you different from the others ?
I don't care.
It feels good.
One month of happiness,
With little crisis for sure,
But no arguments.
Can’t wait for this weekend!
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Life sometimes feels so wonderful !
I sent my SAF for England few hours ago… I really hope I’ll get to
study over there that would be cool as.
Next weekend is going to be so so so so awesome I just
really can’t wait !
I am … happy !!
I’m sooo weird : happy or sad, never in between.
Ah well I’m doing so many stupid things (funny for
sure) I can only be happy ha ha
Anyways
I wish you aaaaaaaaaall the best (I know I’m late)
Happy New Year !
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I don’t like Christmas Eve.
everyone is just so hypocritical. we pretend to have fun just because it's christmas and at christmas you're with you're family and things should be good.
truth is : i don't really like my family.
i can hardly stand my mother anymore. she's just so fake and only talks about her pharmacy.
i sometimes surprise myself thinking i hate her. i know i shouldn't but i can't help it.
i had a bad christmas.
problems with many friends. many friends getting caught up in anger. just because of some random guys.
i was so sad.
things are a bit better now. we realised we couldnt live without each other.
still i'm sad. i've always been like that anyway.
don't know where i'm going. can't figure out what i'm doing.
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